My Favorite

"I don't have a favorite"

-Long pause- HAHAHHAHA- LIESSSS. Actually I do guys.

BUT you're each my favorite- on different days or maybe at different moments within each day.

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*Pop* out they come. They are all yours now and they're beautiful and they're perfect and you will do all the things for them. Lay down your life- walk across burning coals- run into a burning building- jump a cliff, tell off some little kid at the park for poking fun at your child's shoes..oops sorry- too personal- back on track..

HOWEVER...

We don't *actually* feel this intense "day 1" love everyday. We don't actually feel equal love for each of our children everyday either. It is not possible. If you disagree- I'd like to get your autograph for "best mom ever" award.

We go through ebbs and flows where one child is just easier to love- maybe one day or maybe one whole year. The other child may be more work so when you have that magical moment or break through with them, their success and the excitement for them consumes your whole heart. I like to think this is normal.

It was their day.

One of them will finish their night in their room for inappropriate behavior. Another day one just clings- literally or figuratively- on to you and sucks the life out of you. You'll get a (not so great) call from a teacher. Psst you don't think it will happen but yep, it's going to happen with at least one of your little blessings. I know I have many more calls in my future.

Another day one won't sleep or tell you your rule "doesn't make any sense". Someone will jump in the mud and straight roll in it when you specifically said...."DO NOT do that" and oh 🤣...they'll tell you your breath smells on a day you've already been run over by that figurative bus.

So yes- on that particular day- that particular child will NOT be the favorite. You kinda sorta maybe don't want to talk about it- but there IS a favorite (it's just one of the other ones) --that day.

Maybe they just listened to you (shocker) or maybe they had a great soccer game or maybe you saw them be kind to another...or maybe they were just easier. You got a long better. They made you laugh when you really needed it. That child was the favorite that day.

Then you fall out of bed and wake up to a brand new day and "bad child" gives you the sweetest hug and last week's favorite wakes up grumpy with attitude and drama and somehow...you miraculously switch your favorite. It happens. It's weird.

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To my boys - Mommy has a favorite. It's each of you- on different days or potentially at different moments on the same day🙃

On the days you fear you're not the favorite, no worries, you're probably correct. Your partners in crime are bound to mess up tomorrow and give you a chance so just hang in there.

I love you all equally- not by the day or by the minute or even by the month. And the love doesn't even look the same so stop comparing. You're all different and each of our relationships is different.

However, I CAN promise that even on the days when you're my least favorite and you're a huge pain in the ass, I'll still have your back. In other words- *coughcough* I'll still be telling off kids at parks for making fun of you.

Because that's what mom's do.

Xohboys,

Mom